Trust me, I know. When you’re in the thick of it the last thing you think is “this is the best!”. I’ve been married to Pierre for more than 8 years and anyone who truly knows us will tell you that we haven’t had it easy. But who has, really? We’ve faced many trials including unemployment, debt, loss of passion for work and overall difficult situations that arise because of those circumstances, just to name a few. When we’ve faced hard times there’s this sadness and desperation that consumes you. It makes you feel like nothing good will ever happen again, ever. But whenever we come out of whatever difficult patch we realize that it really was in our best interest. So when the next wave hits we don’t necessarily swim with ease but we’re better prepared and we don’t sink.
I have found myself thinking “there surly could have been a better time for this to happen” many more times than I’d like to admit. Every pregnancy for us has presented itself during hard times. With Eva I found out I was pregnant the day before we left for a 10 day missions trip to Haiti. I had been pumped full of vaccines and had to take preventative Malaria pills before, during and for the two weeks following our trip. I was terrified. We found out we were having twins when we were living in a TINY (700 sq ft max) house in Michigan. We had to find a new place to live and then when we did and had settled in, unpacked everything, we realized it wasn’t the place for us and had to re-pack everything and move all over again by the time the twins were 2 months old. Then there was Esme. I found out we were having a 4th when we set plans in place to move back to Florida. Pierre had no job prospects in the area and we were moving blindly on faith. Then 5 weeks before she was born Pierre lost his job and was unemployed for almost 2 1/2 months. I could have written a book on stress.
But hey, I get that these are so insignificant compared to some of the problems around the world. What I mean is that we’ve all been there when our challenges are just that. Ours and very real in our own, personal lives. And I’m just using the pregnancy example. If there is one thing I’ve learned through all of our hard times its that trusting in God is the most important thing we must do to get through. I’ve had to re-learn the lesson over and over. God is in control, He has the right path for me, only He can lead me in the right direction. I just have to be willing to listen, believe and follow.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
There’s promise for our lives in these passages. He has a plan for us but we must seek Him, too. It’s not just about us. I’m selfish and I make mistakes that lead me into difficult situations. I’m human, I make many mistakes and chances are, you do to. He has a plan for you and me but it doesn’t end there. We seek Him as well. We don’t just have to wait blindly for our plan to kick in, we can be in direct contact with Him through prayer and He will lead us in the right path. He is our compass. He listens.